My Break From Blogging

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Today I wanted to address some of the reasons I hadn't been blogging for a while there. I know I've already made a few posts aimed at this, saying I'm getting back to "me" etc... but I just wanted to go into some more detail about them because I was really struggling to find my inspiration again and get back into the swing of things even when I felt like things had been getting better. 


I feel like I had lost my passion for all things that used to make me thrive. I was barley taking photos anymore or keeping up with my online course. I couldn't bring myself to study for my theory test and I dreaded my driving lessons. I just couldn't be bothered to write blog posts anymore because I simply didn't know what to write about, I lost my mojo and it was killing me a little inside. For a while I though I was getting back on track, I felt myself becoming more interested in blogging again, I wanted to go out and experience life.... I felt like I was getting back to myself, until my health started going downhill again. I was in and out of hospital trying to get my health sorted, but I felt like no one wanted to help me. I was always being given new pills to try that "might" help me and if they didn't I had to go back and get new ones to try. It was really exhausting going through this when you have a life to lead, I mean, I am still going through it right now but more seems to be getting done to help me figure out what this god awful thing is. I can't take Leon to nursery some days because the pain is too bad, I can't get out of bed because I am just so exhausted, my energy feels like it is draining super fast, even when I'm not doing a thing, I'm bleeding randomly throughout the month and its black. I am constantly experiencing cramp which is HORRIBLE. I feel completely done with life when all my symptoms hit hard. 

I know I'm moaning, I really do, but I just feel like I need to get it all off my chest so everyone can understand why I was shifting in and out of the blogging world so much. It's hard trying to stay on top of things, engage in conversation and read blogs when I simply have no desire to do it yet in my head I keep telling myself that I need to, that I should want to and it makes no difference. I want so badly to get back into the swing of blog posts, to start writing again as it brings me joy and I felt better for doing it, I felt accomplished and I just really need that right now, something to lift my spirits.

If you have noticed at all, I am starting to write posts more and more, I'm trying to take it one step at a time, writing a few posts to start with and it seems to be working. I'm keeping them small to ease my way back in , I really do hope this works. My inspiration is slowly coming back and I'm getting new ideas daily which is a big step up from how I was feeling a month ago. I do realise this is a long and slightly boring post, but I already feel better for having this written down. Anxiety, depression and poor health is not great and I'm so glad I took some time to get things in my head right and I know there's nothing wrong with doing that, sometimes it's okay to shut away and self heal, it's okay to think about yourself and now that I know it, I'm better off for it. 


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22 comments

  1. I can relate. Over the years, I've taken blogging breaks regularly. But the last one, it took ages for me to get back on the grind. But I think posting/writing at least five days in a week, helps get you back in the swing of things. At least it works for me :)

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    1. It really did help me get back in the swing! I'm now enjoying it me than ever.

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  2. Aw hun sorry to hear that, just take your time and hopefully you will fall in love with blogging again. Sometimes I need to take breaks for my own sanity.

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    1. I feel like If I continued I would have just been publishing poor content that not even I would want to read, so taking a break was well needed. I did try to get back into it a bit sooner than I should have, but I'm getting there. X

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  3. Taking a break is the best thing you can do you and your blog. I do it when I start to lose my passion for it

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    1. That's the best time to have a little break.

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  4. Oh blimey, sounds like you've had a lot going on (I'm not surprised you wanted to take a step back!) Hope you're feeling a bit brighter now x

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    1. Thank you! I really did need it, glad to be back to it now x

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  5. I've only been blogging 6 months and I can see already how taking a regular break is needed. I'm pleased you starting to find your groove again X

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    1. Wow! Only 6 months?! That's amazing! Keep up the amazing work x

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  6. Blogging breaks are vital to reset. I try and take one over every holiday - got two weeks planned over August hope my brain doesn't explode by then. Hope the break has helped you get your blogging mojo back hon xx

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    1. I'm starting to realise that a break is well needed now and then, so I'm planning on another one around October for a week, just some time to not think about it all the time and then get back into it! That's great you have it planned :) I hope you can reset your batteries xx

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  7. I'm glad you are starting to get back into the swing of things.
    Sending hugs. Take things slowly. x

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  8. Taking a break regularly helps a lot. It helps me.

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    1. It's definetly needed now and then

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  9. taking a break can some times be the best thing to do... its good for the sole.. to take a few deep breaths and time for your self

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    1. I so agree, some down time is great.

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  10. It's lovely to hear that you know what brings you joy and that is writing. May you continue doing the things you enjoy and find the solution to your health issues. #mmbc

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  11. I'm glad to hear you are feeling better after taking a bit of time out. I think sometimes thats all it needs, just to step back a little and look after you.
    Onwards and upwards! Sending hugs x

    Thanks for joining in with #MMBC. Hope to see you next week xx

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    1. So true, it's nice to take a step back and just chill for a while xx

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