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Thursday, 8 December 2016

Those people


I think today's post is accurately titled because I'm talking all about those people, you know the ones, at least I'm sure you do.


Those people back in school who taunted you for being unique and not following the crowd. Those people who always had some sort of remark about your appearance. Those people wouldn't have given you a second look. Yeah, Those people.
School was a terrible time for me, I was bullied, made fun of, no one really wanted to know me if I'm honest because I was "that girl" who didn't dress the same, who  had crazy colours in her hair, who had piercings and liked rock music, who took every single one of their mean comments to heart.

Now, those people who never gave me a second look in high school, who used to bully me have suddenly came out of the woodwork.... I'm doing well for myself, I'm working hard on my goals and quite frankly, I look a lot better too.... The boys who teased me about my big boobs and bum now pay me compliments like they never tried to rip me apart one horrible comment and push down the stairs at a time.

I get compliments from them, I get messages of "Hey how are you? Not seen you in so long what's new?" And the girls who turned their backs to me when I walked into that common room, who laughed behind my back about how I looked pass me in the street, smiling, stopping to ask how I am And these are the same people who had a million comments about how I was a mother at 21.... and now have 3 children of their own (not that there's anything wrong with that, I'm not judging, I'm just a little bitter about the hypocrisy of it all if I'm honest)

I don't get it? I don't get why now, now that I do what I'm doing that they feel the need to message me, try friend me on Facebook and follow all my social media, including my blog stuff? What? Why? I thought I wasn't "good enough" to be in your social circle? I thought I should kill myself? I thought I was too fat to deserve a life.... I just, I don't know. I don't understand any of it. I'm a little uneasy about the whole situation.

I want to message them telling them where to stick it, I want to remind them of all the times they bullied me both in school and after, I want to tell them in detail about how their words cut deep like a knife and I developed an eating disorder from their remarks of how huge I was, how fat I looked, how I shouldn't eat ever again. I want to tell them about all the times I ended up in hospital from suicide attempts after they bullied me, both online and in person, I want to remind them about EVERYTHING they ever done to me, but I don't. I remember it all but I'm a different person now, I'm better. I'm in a much better place and I just don't let them control my feelings anymore, because of them I grew stronger and now I know that I'm worth every bit of life I have, every breath I take is precious and they don't affect me anymore.

But those people, those people have no idea what they done to me, not just me either! But everyone they bullied. They have no idea. But I take comfort in amounting to something after they said I never would, I take comfort in the fact I'm nothing like them and I never will be.


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10 comments

  1. You are amazing and so brave sharing such a personal post. I couldn't agree more with what you wrote and good on you for overcoming it all and showing them their words cannot control who you've become! ❤️

    Meg
    xMeganLisa.wordpress.com

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  2. Proud of you for showing them that words don't mean a thing and that you're a strong person! Agreed with everything you've said, keep smiling girlie!

    - Chloe
    chloetommo.co.uk
    xoxo

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  3. Omgoodness I feel like you've just written my entire school experience in one post to the dot, literally. I know 'those people' I also went to school with 'those people' it's sad really that after all this time between school and now they think you've forgotten everything they ever did or made you do. I went through school alone and I thought I was the only one but I'm glad but more so saddened that this happened to other amazing people. Great post. X

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  4. Those people honestly have their own issues to work out. I am with you in wanting to tell people where to shove it after coming out of no where to suddenly act like we're friends after treating me horribly for years before hand. It's best to ignore them now and move on because you've done so much more with your life and you're proud of it. (:

    Single Vegas Girl
    http://singlevegasgirl.blogspot.com

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  5. This is a beautiful post and I feel like I learned so much more about you! I love the title and love how you got your point across without becoming a bully in this post. Very well done!

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  6. I love this post. Kids at school can be so horrible for no reason. But then you leave school and realise being 'popular' or 'following the crowd' isn't the most important thing in life x

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  7. You are truly amazing and worth so much more than all those horrible people all put together! You're so strong and you truly inspire me so much daily xxxx

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  8. This was pretty much my whole school experience! Those people are the worst and they're still the same as they were, except they're stuck and they'll never go anywhere. I had to move school because of them and I came out a much stronger person, and obviously so did you!

    Ada X

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  9. This I totally get. All of a sudden everyone wants to be your friend and nice to you. Yeah you could have told them but you kept the higher ground!

    Vanessa xxx
    www.therealnessonline.com

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  10. This post is so relatable to a lot of people. A lot of people have gone through the same stuff as this. I think its really nice that you were able to share this. Its the same thing for me regarding how people in school never spoke to you and now that they can see you are doing well, they are liking your instagrams and trying to talk to you just because they can see that you are doing well. It is kind of funny! I loved this post, thank you for sharing it! :)

    Sophia xo // sophiaaaxo.com

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