Where do I go from here?


It's an understatement to say I've not had my head in the game when it comes to blogging recently and if I'm honest, it scares me a little.


I love blogging, I love having my own little space where I can vent, talk about products that interest me and it's a place where I feel I actually belong (well, most of the time) so to be in a place where I feel like I'm not good enough to be a blogger is so heart breaking. After everything I've been through recently I've felt very disconnected from the blogging world and my blog. No matter how much, I try I feel like I'm failing. I can't get my motivation back, I feel like it's getting blood from a stone when I'm trying to write a post. I've got two reviews to do, I've written them both around 3 times each and I still feel like they aren't good enough, they feel forced, I'm not able to convey what I think properly and when I read them back it sounds like I don't care about the products when that couldn't be further from the truth. I never want my readers or the brands I work with to think I don't care or that I'm rushing the post just because, I always want to show the care and attention to product reviews that they deserve. When I write a product review and I try out the products I really try them, I use them for a while to get a good feel so that when it comes to explaining my experience the reader knows exactly what I think because I do like to be 100% honest.

I've tried so many things to get my motivation and voice back but nothing is working. I took a break from everything, I had to otherwise I would have had a breakdown. I really though that once I started to feel like me again the inspiration and motivation would come flowing back but it's not, I kept telling myself "once this is out the way I'll be fine" or "once the funeral is over I'll be back" but that's not been the case at all. I'm still stuck, I'm stuck in a place where I can't get my words out properly, everything sounds like a rant and I feel like I've been so negative when that's not who I am. I love being positive, being positive helps me cope because I don't want everything I've been through in life to drag me down and give those around me a bad/negative vibe.

Right now I really don't know what to do, where do I go from here? How do I get my motivation and inspiration back? I've taken time away and coming back has really sent my anxiety through the roof because I can't get my words out properly, I feel like I'm so out of the loop and I don't know where my place is anymore. I've written posts about what's went on hoping it would be therapeutic like my "But Why" and "Thank you for sticking around" posts and although they did initially help I'm still feeling all the emotions from what's happened. I so badly want to feel like me again, to get my groove back. I've made myself up a big blogging diary, I've gotten some blog props to help my photography and I've been trying to brain storm but nothing is happening, there's no creativity flowing in my mind.

I'm hoping that with time it will all come back, I really want to get back into the swing of it and that's why I've written this post, I just had to get all my thoughts and feeling in black and white, I wanted to put this out this to maybe help me get all of these negative thoughts out of my mind to make room the ideas and inspiration. Fingers crossed this little dry spell doesn't last too much longer.





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7 comments

  1. Oh, hun, I'm so sorry to hear this. But I think you need to give yourself a break. You've been through so much recently, I'm not surprised blogging has taken a back seat, both literally and mentally. I know this may sound daft but what about keeping a diary for a few weeks, just to get you in the habit of writing again? No pressure but maybe jot down the good things at the end of each day? I'm sure your mojo will come back, you're too talented a writer/photographer for it not to. Take care, xx

    Lisa | www.lisasnotebook.com

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    1. Thank you lovely, I've just been in such a weird funk with it all, slowly easing myself back into it and so far it's kind of working (Thank God!) Thank you for you're kind words hun.

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  2. Try not to put pressure on yourself, lovely. Blogging is supposed to be enjoyed and, if you’re not enjoying it, don’t force yourself. Your creative juices will start flowing again soon, don’t you worry! Just be patient with yourself.

    Sending love,

    Meg x | the-writeblog.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thanks hun! I don't know why I put this much pressure on myself but I'm learning to let it go (taking a page out of elsa's book lol) finally I'm starting to get somewhere.

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  3. You just need to give yourself time hun. You’ve had a lot thrown at you, things that would be hard separately, let alone in a short space of time.

    Let yourself have the break you need, and get back to it as and when it feels right. Don’t put pressure on yourself to write posts when you aren’t feeling it, you’ll just put more stress on yourself.

    We’ll all be here when you get back.

    Em x

    www.emsworld.co.uk

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    1. Thank you lovely, I just get so frustrated with myself, I know I need to just give myself a break but that's proving hard for me. I'm glad things are kind of getting back to normal though.

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  4. It sounds like you need a little break away from blogging and the world of social media. You need to put yourself first and blogging is meant to be something fun we do and I know we all experience pressure to produce regular blog posts but it's like anything you have to take time off every now and then!

    Kate xx
    www.mummywho.com

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