When Life Gives You Lemons


You know the old saying, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade? Well, I feel like life is just handing me lemons left, right and centre, and I don't have a clue how to make lemonade. 


A lot has happened over the last few months and although it's been an overall ok year so far, there's been some major lows. We've had a death in the family, i've broken a bone in my foot, my depression has been a little bad the past few weeks and I just feel like the walls have been closing in. 

But, despite the lows, I'm trying not to dwell on negatives or focus too much on the bad days, but like anyone, some days that just isn't possible and I take a few hours to lay in bed. February started out strong, I was starting back at the gym and feeling more motivated than I had in a while, but since the 2nd week in February, it's been a downward spiral. 

Everyday life has felt like a chore at points, my mental health has been at a low and after hurting my foot I feel like I'm not as mobile as I'm used to. To counteract this I have been trying to take time for myself to chill, to focus on me but that's better said that done, right? 

Sometimes I'm so tired by the time I'm home or finished doing work that I'm basically in bed sleeping which means I skip the 'me' time or I'm up all night with pain and can't focus, it feels like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. 

Now that it's a new month, I plan on letting go of what's happened because no matter how hard I try, I can't go back in time and I don't want to ruin the present trying to change the past. 

It's playing on my mind the fact I haven't been spending as much time with family or communicating with them, I have let work and other aspects of my life to take over and with thinking about mortality the past few weeks, I've realised I can't let life pass by. I was thinking a lot about how sudden death is and how we never know what's round the corner and It's lead me to the conclusion, life is for living. This isn't new information, not in the slightest but I think we all have to realise it for ourselves, in our own time.

I want to make the most out of life, I want to give little bear the best childhood and I want to genuinely be happy. I've been on this wheel before, feeling like life is on an up after a sown period, so I won't be professing a new found focus or big plan, because I haven't got one, what I do have however, is the want and need to better my life, to make a change. 

So, with that, I'm changing things up, in my life and on my blog because I need to get my passion for blogging back, I miss it.

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6 comments

  1. Absolutely agree with you hun. It can be so hard to juggle everything at the same time at the best of times, but even more so if you are recovering from an injury or feeling low. Life certainly is for living though, and think sometimes we just get so wrapped up in things we forget sometimes, but that’s ok!

    Em xx

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  2. I totally get this. I feel very similar at the moment, like the rut I fell into a few weeks back just will not shift. It's so frustrating because when you want to be positive and productive things always seem to get in your way, don't they? Hope you're feeling back on top of it all soon! x

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  3. I don't have some grand plan either, so I've found that living mindfully in the present is such a gift & really helps you prioritise what's important--relationships. We were literally made to love others & be loved by them, and when it comes down to it, that's all that matters in this life <3 xxx

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  4. Aww I hope you get back to the blogging mood soon! :) I'm sure you will, so take it easy and take it one day at a time :)

    - Hazel | Hazy Wanders

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  5. Aww I hope you get back to the blogging mood soon! :) I'm sure you will, so take it easy and take it one day at a time :)

    - Hazel | Hazy Wanders

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  6. "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade?" I think life does not take everything for you, you are a strong person, I believe so, I wish you happiness!

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